It has been 7 days, now, since I lost my husband and the girls lost their dad. This entire week has just been surreal. On Monday, Wendy and I went to the funeral home and then out to lunch. I ate about 1/2 of my lunch and that was the most I had eaten since the previous Wednesday. I have no idea why, but the trip to the funeral home wasn't nearly as stressful as I though it was going to be and once it was over, I was a little calmer.
For the first time in a very long time, I have slept a full eight hours for three nights in a row. For two days, I have actually eaten 2 full meals each day along with a snack in between. I know how important it is to eat and sleep! Yes, I've had to force-feed myself, but that's okay. It's also okay that I have lost some weight this week.
Once all the medical equipment was gone, I think it was easier on the 3 P's. Okay, maybe it was just easier on ME, but either way, it was a relief to have it all out of here.
Yesterday, I spent about 2 1/2 hours with a bereavement counselor, here, in my home. He asked me a lot of questions and then just let me talk for as long as I wanted to. He will be coming at least once a week for as long as I need him.
I have an appointment with the Social Security office on Monday...assuming I have the death certificate by then. If not, I will have to reschedule. They have told me that I am eligible to receive a percentage of Stan's SS benefits. That takes a tremendous weight off my mind because although it will still be a struggle financially, it looks like I will be able to stay in my house.
The past couple of days, I haven't cried as much and I have been calmer. I attribute this to all the people who are praying for my strength. It IS working! Thank you VERY MUCH for all of your prayers, crossed paws, Aire-zen and all the other kinds of zen you have been sending! Oh, yeah...PLEASE continue to do so!
Also, I would like to send a very big thank you to Wendy, Inky and Molly and their peeps and to Molly, Taffy and Monty and their peeps for the beautiful flowers! I have taken pictures of them and will post them soon. (Sorry, stupid blogger won't let me create links!)
Thank you to ALL of our DWB family!
Lana (and of course, the 3 P's)